Before I
became a mom, you could not have told me that I would now be a full time stay
at home mom in less than two years.
When I was
pregnant with my first I worked full time 12 hour shifts as a registered nurse
on a busy cardiac unit, and my schedule had been perfect for my newly married
lifestyle. But, boy did things change after my little boy came into the world,
just as every new mom has a hard time heading back to work so did I. But it was
gut wrenching when I went to work for 12 hours and would come home and my
little sweet baby didn't want to nurse. And then the fact that when i worked
multiple days in a row I never saw him, I left before he was up and came home
after he was asleep. I remember those days and how I would sneak into his room
just to rock him and smell his sweet baby smell.
When we
decided to try for number two I knew I needed to find a better balance between
my family life and my career. I accepted a new position working three days a
week 8 hour shifts, I was sure that would be a great balance. And then the
bottom fell out when we went in for the
20 week ultrasound and to our complete and utter shock we were expecting not
one baby but two. Once the shock wore off we decided that the best choice for
our family was for me to stay home and pick up shifts a couple times a month.
Making this
decision was easier said than done, being a stay at home mom with three little
kids is not what I expected. Life changed drastically when staying at home and carrying
for my children became harder than just going to work for 8 hours. When my Ob
mentioned something to this effect when I was pregnant with my first, I laughed
and though when would being at home ever be harder than going to a job every
day. I guess I got my answer!
Balance is defined
as an even distribution of weight enabling someone or something to remain
upright and steady.
As a mom
many times I feel that my sole focus is to find balance and keep every thing
from sinking. But, the truth is I am unable to do it on my own, because I know
that there will be days and that I feel out of balance and weary in this life.
But, knowing and believing that He will carry me is where my hope must rest.
He gives
strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow
tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength. They will
soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and
not be faint. Isaiah 40:29-31
Whether you are a stay at home or working it is so important to find balance and peace in where God has placed us. Believing that whether we are cleaning up lunch or titrate drips, for a critically sick patient know that you have the opportunity to reach and encourage someone today.
How do you
keep things balanced in your everyday life, or are things sinking? Come back as
I share how I make it work and keep everything a float as a stay at home mom of three!
Throwback picture from February 2012
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